Day Five

I can't wait for this day to just be over!!!! :O I've been thinking about cheating and quiting all day!
I slept until 7:30 this morning because I was so tired, so I didn't do the SWF and then I accidently drank the lemonade before taking the sienna tea. I don't know if that will amke it worse or of it's just the SWF I have to take on an empty stomach. I didn't know how the tea would make me feel during the day so I have been avoiding it -- and for good reason! I was running back and forth to the bathroom all day (well not running) the first bm was very dark in color, nothing else, the rest were full of bile. And yesterday must have been a detox day because they were burning hot today! Ok - enough of that already! :0) If yesterday was a detox day then it probably wouldn't have mattered if I had taken the SWF or the tea this morning - it probably would have been the same. Think I'll get up around 6 tomorrow though becuase I was kind of in a rush this morning. I woke up with a rumbling stomach for the first time. Almost didn't go to work after the day I had yesterday, but by the time I got up I was okay. I went anyway. :)
Little acid reflux -- still coughing up gunk from my lungs. I noticed this morning that my eyes are a little more blurry than they usually are. In the morning I wasn't quite as tired as I had been yesterday until around 12-3 -- I felt like I could have fallen asleep at my desk for a moment. Perked up after drinking another lemonade. I'm getting tired of them now though!!! But fresh squeezed is definantly much better tasting than the lemon juice and maple syrup that I mix up and store for later. Still taking the cayenne pepper before I drink it - that way I take the full dose. Maybe that's it - it doesn't have that kick anymore. Maybe I'll add just a pinch for flavor only in the lemonade tomorrow. As I said the eyes are blurry and that has really been bothering me today -- maybe that's why I can't hardly keep my eyes open - they feel strained. Others have mentioned that this happens to them too and others have mentioned that doing the cleanse actually makes their eyesight better after it. So maybe God's fixing my eyes! Please Please Please Please Please!!! :) I would love that. Otherwise I might try Burrough's 'eyedrops' that he mentions in the book.
I think it is fairly safe to say that my headaches were caused by sugar, didn't have one today either. It feels so nice! I just hope it's not becauase of the chocolate!! I will revert back to dark chocolate after I start eating again. And I am still considering the lifesytle changes that need to be made and just go fully vegetarian. No red meat at all -- for the past 6 years I have only eaten ham and ground beef. I can always tell my stomach doesn't like the ham. I can tolerate the ground beef. But I think that I should try ground turkey and see if that is a good substitute. I will probably still eat chicken and turkey and cheese, otherwise probably nothing else. I don't mind them, but I can't seem to tolerate eggs anymore either. And I would like to add more fruits and veggies to my diet. And make sure I eat at least 3 meals a day. I just need to change the way I think about food and the reasons that I eat it. My biggest problem is eating out of boredom.
Anyway, I've been thinking about getting a vegetarian cookbook or even one for making Panini's and just going through it page by page- day by day cooking stuff and seeing if I like it or not. I like veggies and I LOVE fruit. :) Ohhh-- I know --- panini's for lunch every day! hehe. And at least try wholegrain pastas and breads, stuff without that processed white flour at least - because the white flour actually has the same effect as sugar to your body I guess... Get thicker sliced turkey and chicken from the deli for panini's.  Or look up recipes on Allrecipes.com and that way you can pick and choose meals. Also - choose a lot of asian dishes - stirfry and brown rice and stuff. That is a good way of getting all your veggies. And soups. The trick is getting used to cooking at home, of which I am terrible at, and limiting my pizza (not cutting it completely though) Hey-- if you made a roast chicken you could use it for soup and for panini's.
Jeez -- now I'm hungry!!!
Anyway-- I got home from work and suddenly I am very chilly (yesterday it was heat flashes!). Got layers on and I'm sitting beneath a quilt --- um--- in front of the fan. :) But it's blowing the other way - i just like the sound of it in the background. hehe. Feel like I could fall asleep again. Might try to do some writing tonight though. I forgot that I have a deadline coming up at the end of the month...