Ease Out - Day Two

I'm going to change this to my 'Raw Foods Lifestyle' journal now! ;) I figured journaling kept me going through the master cleanse, maybe it will help me through the next couple months. I would like to give God one year to change me. So until next June. But I'm going to take it one day at a time! I went for a walk late last night and just talked to God, telling him that I felt really different right now, and motivated unlike ever before. And he was whispering that He knew that He needed to teach me a few things to prepare me for this first and then when he placed the idea before me, I would reach out and grab it, seeing it for its value. And at that time it would be easier to change my lifestyle. So I am trusting God right now. I am putting myself in his hands. People tell me that I am beautiful on the inside and I know that God does not see what man does - he sees straight through to the soul of a person, and a quiet and gentle spirit is of high value to him. But I began to think last night -- I want the outside to match the inside too. I don't want to be trapped in this - well - fat suit. Because it makes me unhappy and sad with myself. I began to realize yesterday after reading someone elses blog about losing weight and realizing that she could be happy while she was on earth -- I began to realize that I have never allowed myself to think that I can be happy while I'm here. I always leave that for heaven, you know. I know that isn't true either - while my life in heaven will be a thousand times better, I can still be happy while I am on earth, because he has redeemed me. I have every right to rejoice because I have such a great God. And being overweight is hindering that. So I don't want it to anymore. I am going to be happy now. And I will lose this weight. I am putting all my trust in God, I have never been able to trust him with his part of my life, I have never expected him to fix it -- kind of like my other addiction. But I have witnessed him changing me as far as that other addiction -- i have been witness to mountains moving just because I have faith that he can move them for me! This is the mountain I stand at right now. I expect it to move. Help me further take my eyes of myself - and put them on you Lord, where they should rightfully be.  Amen.I know I can do this, because I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me.
Anyway! Day 2-ease out. Going ok. Yesterday I wanted to eat something all day, I was one step away from eating the frozen pulp from the oranges I juiced yesterday. (You can freeze the pulp and make sorbert) But God got me through the day without too much temptation. I decided there should be one rule- no eating anything after 8:30pm. That's when I like to snack on stuff (coincedently that's when I sit down to watch tv). I didn't watch ANY tv yesterday, maybe that helped. Let's see - yesterday I ate - well, drank - five oranges and one grapefruit. By the way - don't mix grapefruit juice with your orange juice. It leaves a nasty aftertaste! :) Don't know what I'll do with the other three grapefruit I have. I know I don't like them, so I don't know why I had to have them.... :P
Also - bought some of that Kombacha tea (Synergy) because they have 1billion probiotics in them each (good bacteria for your intestines) and the No 3 flavor tastes nasty! I hope the other three favors taste a lot better. hehe. I also bought some juice that had 20 billion cultures in it. I started drinking it yesterday, then I thought - maybe I should wait until I'm eating before I drink the Synergy stuff because until then my digestive system won't be working properly. I'm excited to eat fruits and veggies today! Yay!! :)
On another note - when you juice mangos they are basically purayed into watery mush. Ew! But it tastes fine in the OJ - it's just a bit thicker. I watered it down a bit. Tastes wonderful. :) I did read yesterday that you should eat low sugar fruits, while you will still lose weight eating all kinds of fruits some fruits have lots of sugar in them (probably OJ!) so you will get to a point where you can't lose anymore weight, then you should look at the kinds of fruits your eating, and eat more veggies instead, and then you should start losing weight again. Eventually you'll get down to your ideal weight in about a year. But people are going to notice that you're losing weight so fast and may be concerned - other people being concerned - that might be the only thing that concerns me! :)
Bought a dehydrator yesterday, cause I knew that at some point I will be craving snacks and stuff. I figured I can make some dried fruit and some raw potatoe chips in it. I guess you're supposed to use sweet potatoes and not regular potatoes cause the regular ones have toxins in them if you eat them raw. Too bad I just bought a bunch of them! But I will have to buy someting called a mandolin to slice them paper thin. Anyway you put a little olive oil on them and some spices (I bought a salt blend and a BBQ blend in the organics isle) and stick them in the dehydrator for a day and you have something like kettle chips I suppose. They looked tasty - and they're not fried. But I guess they can get soggy after a while so store them in an air tight container right away and eat them within 2 days. And probably you shouldn't make very many in a batch. Anyway, I figured that'd be kind of fun. And of course I've been looking up raw chocolate recipes!! (who'd a known) That will have to wait for some time though. Although I want chocolate, I'm not hungry for it. They said that raw foodists can eat it, but it should be viewed as something for special occasions. and you might as well stay away from chocolate candy bars in the store because they will likely have processed sugar in them, unless you can find something made different in the organics isle. You're better off making your own chocolate treats. I will just have to find some cocoa butter. :)
ANyway...now I am making myself hungry. ;) 
Gotta head to church soon. I'm outta here.