Tempation -- Part 2

Been feeling pretty good. No sugars or processed foods for more than 2 weeks. Haven't had a headache or a migraine for 17 days either!! That alone is worth it, cause it sucks when you're popping thei ibprophen every six hours and leaving work early beacuse of migraines... I sincerely hope it's not the chocolate that was causing it! THat would make me really sad. I haven't had chocolate for more than two weeks either. And I'm not dead! (who would have thought...) :) I just feel happier and calmer. And I feel like going for walks (too bad it's been raining every night...) :

Well, I had been doing good this week, until the convention that is.... That was pure torture! All the desserts were chocolate and they had chicken and roast beef and ham piled on top of all the salads they fed us. The meat didn't look at all appetizing and even when I tasted a bit of it, it just tasted really salty and gross. (what happened to my tastebuds???) It was all the chocolate. I was going to go crazy, but I didn't have any. I did eat mash potatoes, even though raw foodists aren't supposed to eat anything cooked. And I did eat a roll (which was yummy). And right away I could feel it making my stomach turn. I suppose when you feed it nothing but nutritious foods for a week it doesn't want anything but that! Alot of people say that once they go on the raw diet their bodies adjust to it and they can no longer tolerate any other cooked, processed, or sugary foods. Because you can tell right away the effect that it has on your body when you eat it, that right now - while you're still eating those things, your body is kind of numb to it, I suppose. The last two days I've really been craving veggies and salads. Today I ate a whole muskmellon by myself!
I find that when I do want to snack, I'm reaching for something salty now rather than sweet - I grab the sunflower seeds. And last night I noticed it and I realized why I was doing it (I was bored and watching the TV) and now I feel kind of guilty when I do it so I put them down and went out and got some frozen fruit juice and ate some of that instead. I did it again today, took a second to consider why and realized I was really hungry, so I ate a handful of the seeds, then got up and cut the rest of that melon up. I decided that if I do need to eat - I can't reach for the seeds and nuts, I need to grab some fruit or veggies - often I just want something to chew on. It's just nice to notice when and why I am snacking, usually I just do it out of habit and don't even think about it.
And then after the banquet tonight (when I was extremely worn out and just wanted to be by myself)they wanted the young women reps to gather for a devotional, when we got there one table was completely laden with junk food and chocolate. I wanted to just cry! It was like someone told them, "'melia bohm can't eat any chocolate, so let's make every single one of our desserts this weekend delicoiusly scrumptious looking and full of nothing but that! mwhahahahaha"
And all I could do was pray - Please Lord, find some way to get me outta this!
Two seconds later someone came in and said there was another tornado watch and we were supposed to go downstairs and wait in one of the rooms. So I um...slipped away, drove through the storm (still praying) and went home. I didn't care if there was a tornado on main street! I was getting out of there!!! :) ANd now I am safe from junk food and chocolate for the rest of the night! Whew. hehe.
   So in conclusion -- tonight's tornado warning might have been my fault. ;) Unless there was actually a tornado, then it is not my fault...I don't know what you're talking about.