I've been neglecting this blog!! :)
I've lost 23 pounds so far!!! :D Whoo-hoo! I'm thinking I actually weigh about one or two pounds more, because I neglected to eat anything besides a huge salad and some watermelon yesterday. Just away from home too much. I tend to notice that when my life isn't revolved around my work schedule, then I don't eat as well. Mostly I am just sitting around the house so I am not too hungry and I just don't eat, i don't feel like eating. (more like it's because I'm lazy and don't feel like getting up to get something to eat.) I tend not to snack those three times a day like I need to. And all I have eaten today is a banana for breakfast and I had a bunch of watermelon at lunch. I should probably make myself a smoothie just to get some food into me. Figured I'd eat my big salad tonight instead. I have been wearing skirts around the house and to church now because my pants are just way too loose and they annoy the crap out of me. I figured if I really have to, I can sew a drawstring into these skirts and use them quite often. I have a jean skirt and that brown one. And I also have that pretty dress I could probably wear, which can double as a skirt if I wear a shirt over top of it. I just don't know what to wear to work, cause I can't wear my flipflops. Might have to find some shoes to go with these outfits, then they will look okay.
I am starting to loose weight around the stomach. Back at the very beginning of this (2 months ago!) I took some swimsuit pictures (blaghhhh) because I wanted to compare them after the 10 day master cleanse. But looking at those pictures that day made me think - melia, you need to lose this weight, it's killing you... I wasn't all gung-hoe about it yet, but I would be. I took pictures 10 days after that, there's not too much of a difference in those comparision-pics. But by that time I was okay with it, because loosing weight on the fast wasn't my goal, it was merely for detoxing. But I've been taking swimsuit pics about every 2 weeks since then. I think I have four sets now. And man - you can see the difference in this last one especially - my butt is shrinking!! :O And so is my belly. I don't know if I will ever post those pictures for others to see, unless I can actually do this, then maybe I will, beacuse they show better then my other pics how far I have come. But you can't see them right now! hehe :)
I had my monthly this past week, no sign that it was coming other than that I was ravenously hungry and craving all the wrong kinds of foods cause my body must need more carbs during that time. Very few aches - just a backache one afternoon, which I took Ibprophen for, so it went away. But no cramps or anything. One thing I noticed was the huge mood swings on Monday - two days before. I was in a foul mood all day long and just wanted people to leave me alone. But I think I caught Joshua on a bad day too, so we were just kind of clashing and rubbing each other the wrong way... :) By the time I got out of there I just wanted to go home and cry, but I couldn't cause I had VBS. I had a much better time then, I was with people I love. I think half of those mood symptoms depends on what kind of people I'm around. People who stress me out or people who put me at ease and allow me to be myself. Usually I will know that I'm in a bad mood because it's 'that time' and be able to take a chill-pill and deal with it, but on monday, even though I knew why I was feeling that way- I didn't care. I just wanted to be angry at the world!!!!! Period came 3 days early by the way. It did that last time too. So when I was going through the hunger and the mood swings that weekend, I wasn't for sure if that was what it was anyway, it seemed a bit too soon. Also - I tend to get a little tired the week before. I want to sleep in until the last minute.