Day Ten//Ease-out

As I said in a earlier post - I have decided to ease out a day early (ease out is supposed to start on day 11) because I have church stuff in the morning and I figured if I got sick to day would be the day to do it. :)
And the Orange Juice!!!! It is so good!! It's fresh-squeezed too and delicious. I saved the pulp that I made from juicing it and put it in a bowl, poured a few tbls of juice over top of it and stuck it in the freezer -- it's supposed to be like sorbert. I guess. :) Yum. I think it would be better with orange and pinapple and mango pulp, but we'll see what this tastes like first. So far I have had two glasses of OJ, the second made me have a bm, not too bad. I've been watering it down - half water/half juice - they recommended that so it doesn't make you sick. Maybe tonight I might see what that sorbert tastes like. I am having some sharp pains in the left side - not sure if it's the stomach or the kidneys - or might just be cramps from - well - you know. 
Women only : I got my mens today right on time as usual. Didn't have any cramps or anything before it. Maybe that's why it's been kind of a hectic week and I wanted to snack on stuff for the past three days - my body wanted the carbs. But I feel just fine now. I was doing pretty good yesterday as far as mood - just the regular mood swings that come during that time. Reading more stuff on Raw Food today. I'm gonna do this! :) Gonna start juicing more too. And really -- I like simple eating which is what they say to do with the Raw food lifestyle. THey say when people first start they try to cook up extravagant meals, then eventually ease into quick easy to prepare stuff.
I don't like cooking up meals -- which is apparently what the body likes. So I think that this would curb my appeal of going to fastfood places. And I'm just fine with that!! :) Really, when it comes right down to it -- I LOVE salads!! I could eat them everyday and when I get hooked on them, I do. hehe. Anyway, feeling strangely optimistic about this raw food diet, I've never felt that way before, so it is kind of wierd... I was reading a lot of stuff about it last night and I guess if you change to that lifestyle completely, your weight will shed off in as little as 6-12 months. I also read that if you eat a lot of fruits, you will have to exercise too, cause they are an energy food. I went --awhhh -- when I read that, but that might be a good thing for me too I guess. Anyway, I know God -- I KNOW he is pushing me and helping me with this. I trust that if I go ahead with this He will be right at my side helping me past the hurdles. In the past year he has also curbed my appetite and desire to make cakes and cookies and sweets. (Which I find REALLY wierd!) and I don't make them as often anymore.
Anyway -- 3 oranges makes about 20 oz of juice and a cup of pulp. I'm gonna go look at dehydrators today. Also might go to the bookstore and see if they have any books on the Raw Food Lifestyle. I don't like the word diet it has too many negative connotations. I will call it a lifestyle from now on. :)
Took more pictures this morning, can tell that I've lost some inches around the belly, and my pants fit way better than they did 10 days ago. I wonder how much weight that is?? I decided I'm not going to buy a scale, I don't want it to devlop into an obsession. I decided I will take pictures of myself every 10 days for the next 6 months. See what happens. It would be cool to see that weight gradually fall off, huh? Also -- they did say that if you do the MC right before you get your monthly then the weight lose won't show as much - because your body is trying to retain water and all those lovely things... :) And again -- women only -- They also say that since your monthly is also a way your body cleanses itself, you should expect your period to be a little heavier with more, um, clumps? as it will cleanse you better than normal...

Day Nine -- Evening

The past three days I have only been drinking 8 glasses of the lemonade -- getting pretty tired of it. But only one more day!! I went to the store tonight and purchased a high quality juicer -- one that will juice just about anything! It cost me $100.00 but I figured that might spur me on to use it more often. And I also bought a blender called the Ninja - it's especially for ice smoothies and it also came with a small food processor for making salsas and stuff, which -- believe it or not -- are sounding really good right now! I am thinking about getting a dehydrator as well to make snacks with, like dried fruit and fruit roll ups and potato crisps. Stuff I can take to work to snack on instead of chocolate. I think chocolate is the only thing I really do crave yet. Which is ok because I decided it would be too mean of me to make it a untouchable thing! I know I would go crazy. But I don't really have an appetite for any other processed or sugary foods now. I am so SO SOO hungry for fruit and veggies. I bought about $50 worth of produce tonight, don't know how long it will last me, hopefully a while. That's a lot, but if it's for my health then I can manage it somehow - God will bless me so that I can eat right. I actually bought a lot of different things - mangos, pinapple, nectarines, watermelon, muskmelon, oranges, apples, strawberries, carrots, broccoli, lettuce, calliflower, snap peas, potatoes. Just to see if I like some things more then others now, I will narrow down what I like later. (Or maybe I'll decide they all taste delicous) Everyone I rolled my cart by looked at me like I was crazy or something for having so much fruit and veggetables!! hehe ;) And it all smells SO good and I want to eat it all. I will make it through the night though. I cleaned out the refrigerator. Plan on doing the dishes tomorrow and I should probably clean out my freezer and my cupboards and get rid of everything that is processed and bad for me. My cupboards will be empty then! :)
But the more I read about this raw food diet, the more intrigued I am by it and want to do it. They say it will be easier to adjust to the diet when you've done a fast and purged your body of all the toxins of meat and processed foods. So-- at first I was going to just try 2 weeks. But now I will try a month.
Can't wait for that OJ in the morning! Fresh squeezed too!!

Day Nine -- Morning

Ok, now for todays! :) Feeling kind of tired today, due to womanly things probably. I have decided not to take the SWF or the tea this morning, I think I'm having enough BM's without it. Woke up at 5:30 or so and had a big bm though. Don't know what that was about. I know my body could benefit going 20 more days, my tongue is still nasty white, but I myself am not ready for that kind of dedication yet. I think that if I went on a 30-40 day fast I would have to be on a full juice fast, not just the lemonade, I would get too tired of the lemonade -- I already am. At least now it tastes okay again. Especially when it's really chilled with ice.
I decided I'm going to ease out tomorrow because I realized my first ease out day was supposed to be on Sunday, and I've heard that it makes you a little bit sick the first day, even if it's only orange juice. People have been saying to cut it in half with water and that will stop you from being sick. But I didn't want to be sick when I'm helping with Sunday school so I've decided to ease out tomorrow. Besides - I'm not going back to a regular diet - I'm going to do the raw foods diet for 2 more weeks. I know I might cheat a bit at the banquet for the LWML, that's the reason I'm not going on a juice fast completely. (and because I miss food) Anyway -- can't wait to eat some fruit and veggies -- or just sip on OJ for that matter! :)  
ANyway! I'm going to clean my kitchen tonight, wash dishes...which i haven't touched all week...and clean out the refrigerator and cupboards, then go shop for a juicer, grab some oranges and grapefruit and some veggies for the broth on sunday. I can't beleive I'm so excited to go shopping for veggies!!!! hehe  It is weird, I have felt this mental change in me, it happened somewhere on day 6-7, I went from wanting bad foods to craving the good foods now. I guess they were right. Not that I'm complaining. Told my dad all about this fast last night, he was pretty impressed. I said -- I just want a piece of chocolate!!! And he said I can't have chocolate ever again!! Hahaha.

Day Eight

Woops! I forgot to type up my blog last night! :) I was watching Ponyo instead until they were making food and stuff and I eventually just had to shut it off cause I was getting so hungry! Hehe. Cartoon food is making me hungry now...mummm... :) Anyway, yesterday when I got up I felt like I was on Cloud 9. Feeling pretty good, probably was on that cleanser's high they mention. Just happy and optomistic. I told Lisa and Lee during my biblestudy that I was on a fast -- I hadn't planned on telling anyone besides my mom - but he just asked me how our weeks were going and I told them -- My weeks been...um...interesting... (to say the least) And it has been. Telling them seemed to give me more motivation to finish. I keep thinking I'm a day ahead of myself cause the detox symtomps are always a day ahead of me. Decided to ease out this weekend though and not go into the juice fast after this, because of that LWML convention I have next week. But instead of going back to a regular diet, I'm going to try that raw food diet for 2 weeks. Juice fast the first day, as many fruits as I want on the 2nd day, as many veggies as I want on the 3rd day, then repeat. I guess once your body adjusts back to the normal way it's supppose to eat (unprocessed foods..) then it has more energy. Hadn't planned to take the tea or the SWF yesterday morning - thought I'd take a break for the day, but then I read that if you don't get the toxins out of your body, they'll reabsorb and you'll keep those detox symptoms and be really tired and stuff. So I drank the tea right before I left for work.
Trying to think of all the things I would use for fruit and veggie days. Fruit days would be like heaven! :P Fruit smoothies for breakfast. It would be the veggie days, because it would be preferred to eat raw - uncooked veggies. I could do salads, potatoes, cauliflower, broccoli, string beans, snap peas, carrots, really the list would go on if I could just learn how to like things. Just can't eat all the things I normally would with a salad though...but -- I'll survive. I decided to allow myself dressing.
I CAN DO THIS!!!!
Heck -- if I can not eat anything for 10 days, I can stick to a raw food diet for another 2 weeks. I just really really want to eat and chew something. ;)
The rest of the afternoon I wasn't really talking to anyone, I was kind of preturbed because those aspen typists won't come and learn t-dealer. Bunch of whiny fuddy-duddies. That's why I moved back to Juniper though. Anyway, I think my mood this afternoon was more due to um... womanly things...than anything else. Which is why I just shut up and kept quiet for the rest of the day. :) Felt really tempted to just quit last night, but I didn't. Just one more day.

Day Seven

Okay! :) Today was a very good day! I didn't think it would be this morning! I was so agitated by the littlest things. And I know why I'm agitated (mens) but it didn't do a lick of good (usually realizing why makes me shut my mouth and keep silent for the rest of the day... :) So I wasn't talking to anyone from about 8:30-10:30. And I know it was bothering the crap out of Joshua who kept trying to talk me up. he's so funny. After I got back from break he broke up my silence by asking me about anime. Then the lips came unglued. And then I got happy and smiley. And the rest of the day was great. Sometime after his break, dunno what happened, he turned quite the opposite and had a terrible day.
Anyway, it's 10:30 now and I don't even want any juice -- it just doesn't taste any good now. Although the mucus build-up that I had yesterday isn't quite as bad now. THroughout the day the lemonade gradually got better. I only had 7 glasses (normally I have 10) so by the time I got done with biblestudy tonight I was a bit shaky. Came home and just had a spoonful of maple syrup. Yum! :) Anyway -- I think either my detoxing yesterday did something to my tastebuds to change the taste of the lemonade or that syrup I bought from walmart just wasn't like the rest. I bought the Andersen's kind from cubs yesterday and started using that today. Lemonade is much better.
Took the SWF this morning and tried to go back to bed for an hour to wait it out, but kept getting up anyway because the Sienna kicked in. The SWF didn't work well today, only put 2 1/2 tsp of salt in. I only got a 10oz return on a 32oz investment!! hehehe. I thought it would push through but it never did. Not all of it. Retained some of it I guess. Maybe I was low in sodium. Will up the dose tomorrow. Still lots of bile in the bm's. Having small bm's throughout the day.
But! I didn't have any dreams about food last night! (thank God) Still no headache or backaches. A lot of people think of quiting on day 7, but I'm going to tough it out, it's not like I can just go and eat a cheeseburger anyway, I would still have to do the ease out. What stopped me from further contemplating quiting (after the horid detox day yesterday) is that I got home and started reading stuff about juice fasting, and that really, if you use all kinds of fruit and veggies and juice them, those will be much more nutritious than just the lemonade. Although the lemons are very alkalizing your body. So I was thinking about continuing on the fast and buying a good juicer and doing fruits/veggies instead of easing out. But then I remembered that I have that LWML banquet next week and the church paid like $80 for all my meals. GUess I better eat them! :) So- I will ease out, but I'm going to try this -- 1 day juice fast, 2nd day eat as much fruit as I want, 3rd day eat as much veggies as I want, repeat the 3 days for two weeks. A girl who was very simular to me as far as weight issues on freedomyou.com said that's what she did - as well as giving over to God, and she lost 100 lbs doing that. I really doubt that it was in the 2 weeks, but she said the fat just melted off. And the fat melting off in that way isn't unhealthy either - because your body is breaking down all those fat cells and diseased and dead cells in your body and using them as energy - and healing you. When you do a fast I guess your body's immune system is kicked in overgear, it takes advantage of the digestive system shutting down to focus on areas that need repair. There is just a lot of fascinating information on fasting that I had never known about. I always thought people fasted for spiritual reasons or to be humble and stuff. And I guess when you get into the extended fasts (20-40 days) your spiritual side is much more keen.
But anyway, I had never noticed the way that sugar effected me going into this - that wasn't actually the reason that I started - it was detoxing - and well- losing weight, but I have not let that become the reason that I'm doing this. Nothing will change my weight issues unless I make a change in the way I eat. So I'm using the things I am learning - the fact that it's probably sugar that is giving me headaches. I don't want to eat sugar now, because I just feel so great without headaches or migraines for once!! :D The thought of greasy food from culvers kind of sickens me, I won't let myself think of pizza. I know that woudln't sicken me no matter how hard I try! I will have to learn how to make homemade pizza. 
But I really am thinking more and more about becoming a vegetarian or maybe even a vegan. Okay -- I do like my chicken and cheese. So maybe just a vegetarian who eats poultry. I don't really eat any other dairy products -- i hate milk, used to love eggs, but rarely eat them anymore. I like cheese though! But I would like to add lots of things into my diet -- fruits and veggies. I can't imagine would it would feel like to make a lifestyle change like that. I know God can change me. I believe it is his will that I found out about fasting and this cleanse - especially at a time when I was not looking for it. And jeez - if I can get through 8 whole days with eating nothing -- that is self-control -- that is learning that I don't have to give into the cravings I have or eat when I am bored. I just have to learn to do other things instead.
Okay -- I have been thinking about food this entire week -- 100% more than usual. hehe. My stomach is actually growling right now. I guess I should have drank more lemonade today. Sorry stomach, you'll have to wait for tomorrow I guess. Maybe you'd like some peppermint tea instead. 
By the way- - that metallic taste went away mostly, as well as the exess mucus.
Mood : Very positive, was alert for most of the day, not so much at biblestudy tonight, getting tired and shaky - didn't drink enough
Symptoms : white tongue. Thirst unquenchable. Although I'm drinking alot of water/lemonade my lips are very dry and starting to crack now. Also -- this acually started before I fasted but my gums have been swollen all week (annoying!). Now they feel like they are turning into cankers. Trying to brush my teeth more often. Afraid I'm going to get a cold sore befause of these cracked lips. :( hopefully not!! Melelucia here I come! hehe.

Day Six

I take back what I said yesterday --- this is the worst day!!!! And I'm so ready for it to be over. All of a sudden this lemonade tastes bad and it's hard for me to drink it. There's a buildup of mucus in my throat that I'm almost drowning in! No matter how much water I drink it doesn't take it away. My tongue is nice and white again. I have a metalic taste in my mouth. I read other people commenting on these symptoms on the website, apparently some of it's from metal toxins being eliminated by the tongue. They were also mentioning that day seven was - Don't Quit Yet! day and most of the people said they were having a hard day fighting their cravings to just give in and eat something. I am technically day six, but I am wondering if fasting on OJ that first day already started it?? So I am really in day 7? Anyway -- all I know is that the seventh day is supposibly challenging - it's the detox day. Maybe tomorrow -- I pray tomorrow will be better than today is. I don't know if I can get that lemonade down otherwise. I went to Cubs earlier today to pick up some more supplies -- it about killed me! Especially the fruit ilse!! Just find the syrup, just find the lemons, I kept telling myself, and keep your eyes on the floor!!! Then outside the stand was selling hotdogs and brats and it smelled SO good. As I passed she asked me if I wanted one. I said no, inside I was screaming, "Give me one, just give me one, please, please, please, please, please!!!" Hehe.
Anyway -- I should have known today would be hard when I woke up in the middle of the night from a dream in which I was eating a steak! I don't even like steak!! Why am I dreaming about it! My conscious is trying to thrwart me. But I am determined to make it through this. Determined I say!!
Haaa--I read the notes I wrote at 10am this morning and they say 'It's getting much better, I have no desire for food at all now.' !!!  hehehe Well, that didn't last long...
ANyway, kind of short tempered this morning and am wondering if my period is coming a little sooner than it should, they said that might happen too.
Oh -- and last night, I went from being really chilly to being so hot that my cheeks were red again and I had to put a wet towel on my forehead just to cool down.Weird. Slept fine though (besides the nightmarish dream about steaks!)
Eyesight is back to its normal blurriness today. :|
I did take the tea again this morning instead of the SWF, didn't work as well as it did yesterday. Think I may try the SWF in the morning, and go back to bed for an hour until it goes through.
No headache! No bachache!
I have decided to only go the ten days. I miss being able to 'eat' food, but I'm going to try veg. diet for a while. Can't wait for that veg. soup on monday!! :) hehe Or even the OJ on Sunday! :D
I think I must have lost some weight. I can now slip out of my jeans without unzipping them. (that or that's just the epitome of my laziness!!) But considering that it hurt to wear them five days ago...they're pretty comfy now.

Day Five

I can't wait for this day to just be over!!!! :O I've been thinking about cheating and quiting all day!
I slept until 7:30 this morning because I was so tired, so I didn't do the SWF and then I accidently drank the lemonade before taking the sienna tea. I don't know if that will amke it worse or of it's just the SWF I have to take on an empty stomach. I didn't know how the tea would make me feel during the day so I have been avoiding it -- and for good reason! I was running back and forth to the bathroom all day (well not running) the first bm was very dark in color, nothing else, the rest were full of bile. And yesterday must have been a detox day because they were burning hot today! Ok - enough of that already! :0) If yesterday was a detox day then it probably wouldn't have mattered if I had taken the SWF or the tea this morning - it probably would have been the same. Think I'll get up around 6 tomorrow though becuase I was kind of in a rush this morning. I woke up with a rumbling stomach for the first time. Almost didn't go to work after the day I had yesterday, but by the time I got up I was okay. I went anyway. :)
Little acid reflux -- still coughing up gunk from my lungs. I noticed this morning that my eyes are a little more blurry than they usually are. In the morning I wasn't quite as tired as I had been yesterday until around 12-3 -- I felt like I could have fallen asleep at my desk for a moment. Perked up after drinking another lemonade. I'm getting tired of them now though!!! But fresh squeezed is definantly much better tasting than the lemon juice and maple syrup that I mix up and store for later. Still taking the cayenne pepper before I drink it - that way I take the full dose. Maybe that's it - it doesn't have that kick anymore. Maybe I'll add just a pinch for flavor only in the lemonade tomorrow. As I said the eyes are blurry and that has really been bothering me today -- maybe that's why I can't hardly keep my eyes open - they feel strained. Others have mentioned that this happens to them too and others have mentioned that doing the cleanse actually makes their eyesight better after it. So maybe God's fixing my eyes! Please Please Please Please Please!!! :) I would love that. Otherwise I might try Burrough's 'eyedrops' that he mentions in the book.
I think it is fairly safe to say that my headaches were caused by sugar, didn't have one today either. It feels so nice! I just hope it's not becauase of the chocolate!! I will revert back to dark chocolate after I start eating again. And I am still considering the lifesytle changes that need to be made and just go fully vegetarian. No red meat at all -- for the past 6 years I have only eaten ham and ground beef. I can always tell my stomach doesn't like the ham. I can tolerate the ground beef. But I think that I should try ground turkey and see if that is a good substitute. I will probably still eat chicken and turkey and cheese, otherwise probably nothing else. I don't mind them, but I can't seem to tolerate eggs anymore either. And I would like to add more fruits and veggies to my diet. And make sure I eat at least 3 meals a day. I just need to change the way I think about food and the reasons that I eat it. My biggest problem is eating out of boredom.
Anyway, I've been thinking about getting a vegetarian cookbook or even one for making Panini's and just going through it page by page- day by day cooking stuff and seeing if I like it or not. I like veggies and I LOVE fruit. :) Ohhh-- I know --- panini's for lunch every day! hehe. And at least try wholegrain pastas and breads, stuff without that processed white flour at least - because the white flour actually has the same effect as sugar to your body I guess... Get thicker sliced turkey and chicken from the deli for panini's.  Or look up recipes on Allrecipes.com and that way you can pick and choose meals. Also - choose a lot of asian dishes - stirfry and brown rice and stuff. That is a good way of getting all your veggies. And soups. The trick is getting used to cooking at home, of which I am terrible at, and limiting my pizza (not cutting it completely though) Hey-- if you made a roast chicken you could use it for soup and for panini's.
Jeez -- now I'm hungry!!!
Anyway-- I got home from work and suddenly I am very chilly (yesterday it was heat flashes!). Got layers on and I'm sitting beneath a quilt --- um--- in front of the fan. :) But it's blowing the other way - i just like the sound of it in the background. hehe. Feel like I could fall asleep again. Might try to do some writing tonight though. I forgot that I have a deadline coming up at the end of the month...

Day Four - Evening

Well the rest of the day went okay, mostly sat around until I came out of that glazed over stage where I just wanted to sleep. I almost took a nap. Around five or so I livened up and my body was telling me - go for a walk! Guess it wanted air, so I took it for a walk. :) Little lightheaded by the end of it. Only went for about 20-25 minutes. Got back a couple minutes ago. Now I have a slight headache from it. Maybe pushed myself a bit too much - I've only had 8 glasses today. Anyway -- I'm glad the day is almost over -- I wonder what is on the table for tomorrow. Ok - bad expression - now I'm thinking about food! You know -- honestly -- I think I have learned more about self control and will power over the past five days than in my whole life. I have always let food have its way with me - I was under its influence. I should be able to choose what I want to eat. Ok -- that may take a bit more work -- because typically what I want to eat isn't what I should be eating! :)  God I just want a panini sandwhich!!! Right now!! Think I'll sip on some peppermint tea, laced with---you guessed it -- maple syrup! I think I am developing an addiction. :) It's just so good. hehe. Anyway, hope this headache goes away soon. :) I think there is a list of stuff to try and get rid of a headache naturally -- I'm not supposed to use any OTC drugs on this fast either. :( I am probably classified as a pill-popper. I'm always reaching for the ibprophen. If I could beat this sugar habit, I don't think I would have too. And my back hasn't been aching -- okay it does when I sit on the couch in this position! But I was really suprised that the back pain - the muscle that I must have stretched -- it went away so suddenly - the first day I was on this fast actually.
Anyway---that rash went away now. And I wish I didn't have such a keen sense of smell -- I laid here most of the afternoon smelling my own odor!! I smell rancid even though I've showered!! I guess it's those rancid oils and toxins. I don't know -- definently have this 'stale' smell. I know others have said this when they go on their fast -- and usually it's their partner they can't stand to be around though - because their nose is so sensitive their partner smells like grease or fast food. :) Another reason I'm glad I'm single! I don't have to cook for my family or be around others who are eating! That makes this much easier.
I must admit -- I was eyeing those bananas at the breakfast table this morning! They looked so good.
Whoa - suddenly I feel like I want to throw up or something, better get some tea or lemonade or something. 
By the way -- the Sienna tea tastes much better when you only take 8 ounces of it - let it steep for however long, drop icecubes in it to cool it and take it right before you go to bed. Like RIGHT before! Too early and you'll wake up at 4-5 with cramps I think. I've been going to bed around 11:00 though. I normally go to bed at 12 -- but hey -- I've been forcing myself to get up at 6 every morning just to choke down that salt water flush. Blaghhhaaa!!!!  Also -- used 2 1/2 tsp of sea salt this morning -- worked - not quite as good as yesterday - but really - who wants to be running (and I mean running) to the bathroom for three hours. Might as well just camp out on the floor and read a good book while you're there! Still takes about an hour before it starts. Also I had a BM this afternoon - which was kind of odd -- usually it's all in the morning. 
Ok, I really need to get some tea before I pass out or something.

Day Four -- Morning

Well, this morning was...umm...interesting. Feeling it today! :) I probably wouldn't have gone to church if I hadn't had to do sunday school or if I hadn't had to play piano for second service, I'm really beat and tired today, exhausted is probably the correct word! Even after I played piano I was thinking about leaving. I was a little shaky and thought I might pass out or something. I think some of it was because after I play piano I get the butterflies in my stomach (after -- not before -- weird, I know), and perhaps because today I have been taking a shot of cayenne pepper in water first, licking the maple syrup spoon quick (before my mouth goes on fire!) and drinking the lemonade afterwards. That way I get larger dose of cayenne pepper, but I think it raised my metabolism, I was hot and sweaty and shaky. I almost left church after the lessons, then I decided to listen to Ruth and the kids during the children's sermon, which made me laugh so much, and then suddenly I was fine. I also didn't get my normal 10:30 drink in, so I was probably running low on energy too. But anyway, was feeling better after that, came home and mixed myself a drink. I love licking that spoon! :) Who knew that maple syrup could taste so good!! hehe. Anyway, I am still pretty tired today, so I'm taking it easy and hanging out at home. I feel like I could take a nap! (I never ever do that!)
Today is supposibly 'Healing Events' day -- which would explain the hot flashes this morning and the exhaustion. Last night after I showered I noticed that there is a red rash on my breast, this morning it was still there, and there was also a smaller one on the underside of my arm. -haha, the reason I took that shower in the first place? My sense of smell is so good right now --- I smelled musky. And even the water coming out of the shower has an odd smell. Everything does. It probably sounds crazy, but it's true. ;)  I didn't sleep as well last night -oh- hehe- I had the food dream -- people kept giving me garbage bags of movie theater popcorn and I kept trying to give it away, but no one would take it!! Why I am I dreaming about popcorn! I don't even like popcorn! And I remember there were also peanut M&M's in that dream.  Hehe.
Anyway - just lounging around. Maybe I'll mix myself another glass of lemonade. (All I really want is to lick the spoon) :) Oh man...how sad is that! That I live for licking the maple syrupy spoon! Maybe I should fix myself a peppermint tea and add a bit of MS to it (just not as much as I did the other night)