I've had an interesting week so far...interesting... :) I got moved away from the guy who drives me bonkers at work. Well - not really, now I just sit behind him, and now I'm just in the middle of three boys who poke fun of me. What happened? I thought Nick was quiet??? But he's just as bad as the other two! hehe. That's all right. That's what makes it fun working there. Hey - I work with a bunch of guys - When they're not talking about videogaming, they're having three-hour long conversations about bacon, or the stupidity of chickens, or star wars and whatnot. What was today's topic? Oh yeah -- paperclips. I wish I had an emoicon for rolling my eyes! :)
It has been an interesting week. Still going pretty steady in this Raw Diet. Actually, a few weeks back I was having doubts I'd make it a month, cause I was thinking about reeses peanut butter cups and cheese cake and pizza a lot during one of those weeks. But here I am... and I don't really want any of those foods anymore. The thought of eating those greasy, sugary foods - it just makes me sort of sick inside. I do crave bread from time to time.
My main problem is making sure I eat enough everyday. I still tend to slip quite easily into that pattern of eating nothing until super. But I make sure to take fruit with me to work so I can eat it during my breaks to quell the hunger. I love watermelon. I think I will get up and get some now! :) I have been experementing with different veggies/fruits. I even bought some mushrooms tonight that I thought I might add to the chilli soup i want to make this weekend. I figured if I like nuts now - maybe I'll like mushrooms?? Probably not. But I'll give it a go.
I have begun to notice how much my attitude has changed just in the past month. I am just happy and very talkative. I noticed that last night in biblestudy as I was sitting with my friends -- what's going on with me? I wondered. I'm normally a listener. I normally have a ton of things worrying my mind that prevent that smile from ever reaching the surface. Somehow they have gotten me completely open and talking -- somehow they've caught me actually being me. And now I am just filled with joy and I can't stop that smile. That is why I know I can do this. I have never expereienced such perseverence or self-control before - or such joy.
I will probably run down to the YMCA this next week and see if I can afford to get a membership there again. I miss swimming. I used to swim all the time. But I had stopped because I don't like my body. But now I am starting - just a little - to see someone else when I look into the mirror now. It is sort of strange. :P The self-portrait I took the other day, I find myself gazing at it some times because I am beginning not to recognize her or the expression on her face. The clothes are getting baggier, the face is just beginning to change, the shoulders are more defined, the hips and waist are getting smaller. I am just hoping I can make it a few more weeks with these shorts! It's getting to the point of annoyance because they're getting so loose! And I know all that is going to continue during the next months - to change more and more until I look back on my old pictures and I don't recognize that girl anymore. And I happily await that day.
Did I ever tell you what I'm getting myself in six months (five months now!) if I can do this? I am buying myself an orchid. Because to me - an orchid is a thing of beauty. I know that beauty on the outside is fading - but you know what - I feel the inside changing too. I feel more peaceful and calm each day. And certainly more joyful and happy. And just giddy with excitement!! :)
At least the boys at work have stopped asking me why I'm smiling so much by now, they are no longer suspicious. They're getting used to it. They all know I'm doing this too, they've actually been quite supportive. Which is why Joshua keeps asking me if I would like a swedish fish everyday! He fains sweetness, but he's full of nothing but sarcasm from head to foot. ;)
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
I am Tired today. :O
I am tired today, but for um...more feminine reasons. :)
For girls only now! And I'm sorry if it grosses you all out, but - hey - we all go through it. ;) So let's talk about periods! And how this raw lifestyle changes it. hehe. My mens came three days early, I am usually very regular, so that is unusual for me. A lot of women say that on this lifestyle their periods change a lot - if they normally have a very heavy or irregular flow it becomes shorter and not as heavy. When you get right down to it - your body is detoxing properly on this diet so it's going to change your monthly cycle too until it's running as it should be. Women who are going through menopause find that it helps with all the side effects like hot flashes and stuff like that.
Honestly - when I get mine it isn't too bad, for the week before I am like an emotional rollercoaster - I get depressed five days before and then two days before I just get all out angry and if you're pisssing me off - I clam up and I'm just not even going to bother talking to you. Just give me some chocolate dang it and go away! hehe. You know that's what you're really thinking! ;) As long as I realize what is causing it I am always okay. I just know I need to take that day easy and do something to relax. But when I don't realize what is going on - then I give into all that anxiety and anger which makes for a terrible day.
When the period starts, I get some bad cramps for half of the first day and an afternoon of feeling uncomfortable and very tired. As soon as that first day is over then I am fine. Mood stabilized. ;)
Honestly - I knew I was going to have it this week, but I had no other 'side effects' that usually warn that it's coming - none of the anger or emotional ups and downs. I've been full of joy all week actually. I didn't even have any cramps. None of the muscle or back aches that get really bad around that time. But I am tired and didn't sleep as well last night, but that's about all. I really hope that continues. That would be sweet. :) I had pretty much lost my appetite this whole week and I am wondering if it was because of the cycle?? Usually I fill up on carbs and lots of sweets during the week before -- you know - those 'comfort foods'. Kinda makes you wonder if it's the 'comfort' foods that make you so miserable during that time - because if you're eating twice as much sugar, then obviously you're going to be having highs, and then crashing really bad a while later. So you eat more sugar to get the high again. ?? I don't know, just something I was wondering about. Basically I was having to make myself eat, because my body just wasn't giving me the signal that it was hungry. And that makes it real easy to slip into that old mentality I had of not eating breakfast and lunch and chowing down at super.
I think that I may need to get up earlier again in the morning - an hour earlier at least. I remember that I got up around 6:15 during the Master Cleanse I did and I could get a lot more done before I had to go to work - not to mention I felt more awake while I was at work then. :) But I was thinking if I got up earlier, I could fix myself a better breakfast. Usually breakfast is 1 banana, 12 cherries, and a handful or two of blueberries, all blended into a smoothie. Easy way to get a lot of food in - I guess in the morning your body is still in a detoxing mode - that's why it's a good idea to drink lemon water and other stuff like that that tend to help it along. It also helps to drink a liquid breakfast - juice or smoothies. Because it's easier on the digestive system at those hours. Your body is breaking down toxins/cells. Around noon it shifts I guess and starts building up and lunch will be your most important meal of the day. And you eat every three hours in between that to keep feeding it the energy it needs for all those processes. They say three hours because that is how often a nursing baby feeds I guess. And I noticed when I did the MC that every three hours was when I was truly getting hungry. Basically when your body is saying feed me and even a bowl of brocoli looks good - eat - you're hungry. When your mind is craving pizza, and nothing else will satisfy you except pizza - don't eat because you're just having a craving.
I don't know how much of that is true - I was just reading about it from a few different sources.
Somedays all I crave is lots of veggies and leafy greens. Just give me a big salad - I don't want anything else. Other days all I want is a bunch of fruit - because I need more energy. I figure my body knows what it needs and is sending signals for different things. So I am just eating what it wants me too. That's why I had a bunch of veggies today and only a few servings of fruit this morning. It's just weird stuff like this that I am picking up on.
Anyway -- Amanda commented that she could tell I had lost some weight. 13 pounds! :) She could tell mostly by my face. I don't know. It doesn't look any different to me. But I can tell I've lost a bunch around the waist. Cause my pants don't fit anymore and I pull them back up twenty million times a day! You know, I didn't stop to think that when I started to actually 'transition' I was going to need new clothes cause my old ones won't fit me anymore. Yes thats exciting - but really it's just annoying too! So if you see me around and I look like one of those gangster boys wearing my pants below the waist and drowning in baggy shirts - don't think little of me! Unless you want to take me shopping! :) hehe. Maybe I will need to start saving up some money for that purpose! All I want for Christmas is a shoping spree! :O
Tonight I did try some steamed veggies - I only steamed them for about five minutes this time - they were basically just hot and still very crunchy - which is how I like them anyway. I will see tomorrow if it is the 'cooked' foods that give me that 'hit by a train' effect. ;) I don't think it will.
Let's see -- I decided to post the picture -- and it was scruptious! So I'll post the recipe too --
Brocolli
Cauliflower
Carrots
1 clove minced garlic
put all in your steamer basket - sprinkling the minced garlic over top of all
Steam for 5 minutes, adding several leaves of spinage about 1-2 minutes before you're done (don't want them too soggy)
Put on plate. I have allowed dressing and sauses into my raw diet (I am high raw but not 100%) so I poured some general tso's sause over the top of it - all natural ingredients and no preservatives (basically when you read the ingrediants and know what everything is - buy it.).
Oh -- and here's the kicker - you have to eat it with chopsticks. Especially chopsticks from Japan!! Otherwise it just doesn't taste as good. :D
For girls only now! And I'm sorry if it grosses you all out, but - hey - we all go through it. ;) So let's talk about periods! And how this raw lifestyle changes it. hehe. My mens came three days early, I am usually very regular, so that is unusual for me. A lot of women say that on this lifestyle their periods change a lot - if they normally have a very heavy or irregular flow it becomes shorter and not as heavy. When you get right down to it - your body is detoxing properly on this diet so it's going to change your monthly cycle too until it's running as it should be. Women who are going through menopause find that it helps with all the side effects like hot flashes and stuff like that.
Honestly - when I get mine it isn't too bad, for the week before I am like an emotional rollercoaster - I get depressed five days before and then two days before I just get all out angry and if you're pisssing me off - I clam up and I'm just not even going to bother talking to you. Just give me some chocolate dang it and go away! hehe. You know that's what you're really thinking! ;) As long as I realize what is causing it I am always okay. I just know I need to take that day easy and do something to relax. But when I don't realize what is going on - then I give into all that anxiety and anger which makes for a terrible day.
When the period starts, I get some bad cramps for half of the first day and an afternoon of feeling uncomfortable and very tired. As soon as that first day is over then I am fine. Mood stabilized. ;)
Honestly - I knew I was going to have it this week, but I had no other 'side effects' that usually warn that it's coming - none of the anger or emotional ups and downs. I've been full of joy all week actually. I didn't even have any cramps. None of the muscle or back aches that get really bad around that time. But I am tired and didn't sleep as well last night, but that's about all. I really hope that continues. That would be sweet. :) I had pretty much lost my appetite this whole week and I am wondering if it was because of the cycle?? Usually I fill up on carbs and lots of sweets during the week before -- you know - those 'comfort foods'. Kinda makes you wonder if it's the 'comfort' foods that make you so miserable during that time - because if you're eating twice as much sugar, then obviously you're going to be having highs, and then crashing really bad a while later. So you eat more sugar to get the high again. ?? I don't know, just something I was wondering about. Basically I was having to make myself eat, because my body just wasn't giving me the signal that it was hungry. And that makes it real easy to slip into that old mentality I had of not eating breakfast and lunch and chowing down at super.
I think that I may need to get up earlier again in the morning - an hour earlier at least. I remember that I got up around 6:15 during the Master Cleanse I did and I could get a lot more done before I had to go to work - not to mention I felt more awake while I was at work then. :) But I was thinking if I got up earlier, I could fix myself a better breakfast. Usually breakfast is 1 banana, 12 cherries, and a handful or two of blueberries, all blended into a smoothie. Easy way to get a lot of food in - I guess in the morning your body is still in a detoxing mode - that's why it's a good idea to drink lemon water and other stuff like that that tend to help it along. It also helps to drink a liquid breakfast - juice or smoothies. Because it's easier on the digestive system at those hours. Your body is breaking down toxins/cells. Around noon it shifts I guess and starts building up and lunch will be your most important meal of the day. And you eat every three hours in between that to keep feeding it the energy it needs for all those processes. They say three hours because that is how often a nursing baby feeds I guess. And I noticed when I did the MC that every three hours was when I was truly getting hungry. Basically when your body is saying feed me and even a bowl of brocoli looks good - eat - you're hungry. When your mind is craving pizza, and nothing else will satisfy you except pizza - don't eat because you're just having a craving.
I don't know how much of that is true - I was just reading about it from a few different sources.
Somedays all I crave is lots of veggies and leafy greens. Just give me a big salad - I don't want anything else. Other days all I want is a bunch of fruit - because I need more energy. I figure my body knows what it needs and is sending signals for different things. So I am just eating what it wants me too. That's why I had a bunch of veggies today and only a few servings of fruit this morning. It's just weird stuff like this that I am picking up on.
Anyway -- Amanda commented that she could tell I had lost some weight. 13 pounds! :) She could tell mostly by my face. I don't know. It doesn't look any different to me. But I can tell I've lost a bunch around the waist. Cause my pants don't fit anymore and I pull them back up twenty million times a day! You know, I didn't stop to think that when I started to actually 'transition' I was going to need new clothes cause my old ones won't fit me anymore. Yes thats exciting - but really it's just annoying too! So if you see me around and I look like one of those gangster boys wearing my pants below the waist and drowning in baggy shirts - don't think little of me! Unless you want to take me shopping! :) hehe. Maybe I will need to start saving up some money for that purpose! All I want for Christmas is a shoping spree! :O
Tonight I did try some steamed veggies - I only steamed them for about five minutes this time - they were basically just hot and still very crunchy - which is how I like them anyway. I will see tomorrow if it is the 'cooked' foods that give me that 'hit by a train' effect. ;) I don't think it will.
Let's see -- I decided to post the picture -- and it was scruptious! So I'll post the recipe too --
Brocolli
Cauliflower
Carrots
1 clove minced garlic
put all in your steamer basket - sprinkling the minced garlic over top of all
Steam for 5 minutes, adding several leaves of spinage about 1-2 minutes before you're done (don't want them too soggy)
Put on plate. I have allowed dressing and sauses into my raw diet (I am high raw but not 100%) so I poured some general tso's sause over the top of it - all natural ingredients and no preservatives (basically when you read the ingrediants and know what everything is - buy it.).
Oh -- and here's the kicker - you have to eat it with chopsticks. Especially chopsticks from Japan!! Otherwise it just doesn't taste as good. :D
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